Living In Black

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Honestly, I'm very upset over the whole incident~! Firstly, I missed my semester 1 examinations due to IMF S2006. So that means for semester 2, I'll need to take exams for both semster 1 & 2. Now that I am already so behind time, my supervisor gave me another challenge, and so that makes the second point~! Secondly, I had missed 2 lessons due to my wisdom tooth operation. So that mean I couldn't miss any more lessons. But to make things difficult for me, my supervisor wanted me to always find a substitute (Be it the other person is on leave, or off day, or worst, other teams~!) to come back to cover me for my work, ranging from 15min to 3 hours. Can you believe that~? 15min~?!! For that 15min, people had to come back for work during their leave or off day~? Crap isn't it~? That makes me the common enemy in my work place. I had to owe people favour, just to go for my lessons~! The best thing that my supervisor can say is, "The most you re-course this semester only what~?" Power~? Not yet~! That's my last but not least point~! I had planned to clear my leaves for this year on mid-November to mid-December so that I could prepare for my exams this coming January 2007. In total there are 20days worth of leaves plus off days. Now, that champion supervisor show "pattern" again by cutting down my plans to 10 days worth of leaves plus off days~! 50% OFFER~! Why did he do that~? So that he & his scandal assistant supervisor can go oeverseas seperately~! All that on the expense of the rest of the team members~!

What kind of supervisor is he man. He don't plan his leaves~! Then ask his men to plan, only to be cancelled by him at the very last minute. That's why our team's MC rate is so high, because most of us are so fed up already~! Some of them even wanna sign a petition, but they later stopped it because they don't wanna get him into trouble. Yet he really abused his position as a supervisor in this area. I'm not saying that he's a complete a**hol* you know, he is a rather good person, but he's a damn lousy supervisor. He can be so sacarstic to tell the Chinese, "Hari Raya and you wanna apply leaves near to the season~! You might as well convert to Muslim~!" Trust me, he is famous for such remarks~! So many people got this many times before~! Yet, now that Christmas is near, he is taking overseas leave until Chrismas eve~!

Anyone with any suggestions on how to treat or work with such kind of supervisor~? I'm really forcing myself to work everyday now, and I'm NOT THE ONLY ONE~! Sooner or later, either the rest are gonna quit, or they will request for a transfer~! 5 years coming soon, and I think I really had enough of this~! What can I do....? Please help~!

Posted by Stanley @ 11:39 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Been wanting to continue updating "My Homepage" for a very long time, but I wasn't able to. Mainly because I am busy, or should I say lazy~? Anyway, for those who had yet to visit "My Homepage", the link is on the lower left bottom of this page. It's a just site where I tell about how I grow up, my love life ...etc... Anyway, I had also wanted to add a new column in there too call the "Biography", where in there you'll find those important people who came into my life. That too, isn't updated. However, the last thing that I will add into "My Homepage" will be "My Story II", where I talk about my life after marriage. Well since I'm not married yet, so the site is currently unavailable too~! ^_^Haha~! Crap, I know...! Anyway, that's just a intro to the site ya...

Photo Of Me & JingLin Quite Some Time Back...

In today's entry, I'll do a little attribute to the girls that had came into my life, mainly romantically... Woo... I can see your eye widen up already... ^_^Haha~! Seems like Stanley is gonna reveal some more saucy information huh~? Well, if you really wanna know, read on... However, I'll not mention any names here. And if some photos look like someone you know, don't even bother to try figuring her out ya...

To start off, I'll have to relate to a friend of mine (Yes, it's a she...), because she told me about her relationship. She is a tall, pretty & elegant girl whom she was attached to a guy when she was still studying her tertiary education. So many people had tried dating her, but none seems to had succeeded except for this particular guy. After years of relationship, they finally gotten themselves engaged. They had even queued for their love nest. Recently the guy bought a new car, and the unexpected started to happen... The guy committed adultery. I shall not get into details, but I can only say that this friend of mine is like 95% confirmed that her husband had betrayed their vows. It's a long time since I last saw this girl friend of mine after I graduated from my tertiary institute, and it was just so recently that we met up again. To me, she is still at pretty as she was. Only thing is that, she doesn't look so cheerful anymore. Seems to me that something had gone missing from her.

Here's The 2 "Special" Ones...

She sent me a message recently, asking me after all this time, has her appearance changed or something. Well, I told her the truth that she's still as pretty as compared to the last time I saw her. Then her reply sadden me.. She said, "So what if I am still pretty, my husband doesn't like it..." It's as though I could feel her pain~! Then I replied, "Some men made certain mistakes. They treated woman like sashimi, whereby it must be tasted fresh & new. But I feel differently, I feel that woman should be treated like wine, whereby the more mature it is, the better it taste. And the brewer himself makes a significant difference to the quality of the wine with his determination, consistency & discipline."

Just some of them...

I used to belong to the group of men who had preferred "sashimi". Not that I am proud of, in fact, it is one that I'm guilty of. I guessed that that is just part of a process whereby a boy grows up to become a man. I know that this should not be an excuse, but that was how I really think then... To some girls, I might had done terrible things to hurt them before, and I'm sorry. I still am. But to some, I treated them with the best effort I could then, and I'm grateful.

I don't have ALL their photos...

See, so many girls had came into my life then. Most came in say "hi" now, and the next moment "bye bye". For some, I wished that they could stay, but I never was lucky enough to. Some made me do a lot of crazy things that I can't even dream of. However, some did managed to stay and grow up with me. We learnt as we go along together. We mature with the things we say & do. We experience new things. adventure new places, eat new cuisines ...etc.. So many different things to share. And when the time came, they left. Most parted with good memories to keep, some left with painful tears, and some I wish I had never been together with. Still, all that contributes to what I am now, how I think, and where do I plan on going in the future. I would say that I had been through a lot of things in life, but I don't think that I had been through enough. There are still so many things for me to try & do, only then would I know that I had not wasted my life when I'm on my dying bed. Most importantly, the one fine lady that I hoped would accompany me to walk side by side with for the next half of my life...

Do You Want To Be "The One" For Me Eventually~?

The important thing is not about who comes or goes in your life. It's all about how much you had learn "before", "during" and "after" that significant person is with you... With that note, I wish everyone well in your adventurous life to come~! Take Care...

Posted by Stanley @ 2:17 PM

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Hi people, I just got back home from my operation. What operation, some might ask... For those who had yet to know, it's the surgery for my wisdom teeth. According to the dentist, I had to remove 4 of them. As there are located at the 4 corners of my mouth, I was advised to remove 1 side at a time, meaning 2 teeth of the same side.

Now that the anesthetic is starting to wear off its effect, I'm starting to feel the enjoyable pain already. In fact, it's causing me to be a bit drowsy...

I guessed I shall quickly share my experience with those who are still inexperience in this. Well trust me, you're not gonna like it. Before the surgery, you will have to consult the dentist several times before you could lie on the operation table. I shall skip that, as it's of no importance~! On the date of the surgery, make sure you eat more so that you would feel hungry after the surgery. Trust me that you wouldn't have the appetite to eat, even though you're hungry afterwards. Make sure you go mentally prepared~! The anesthetic injection is the 1st terrible thing that you'll confirm encounter~! This needle is no ordinary needle, the size of it will sure make you worry... Yet this injection is is just for your gums only. *faints* Next they'll cover your whole body up, leaving only a hole just nice for your mouth. As you panic away, your greatest nightmare is just getting prepared for you. When the anesthetic takes effect, it play time. You can get to peek thru the same opening of the hole that I mentioned earlier, but I don't think you would wanna know. Imagine that the needle if already that size~! To be frank, I was trembling terribly under the sheets... Call me a chicken, pussy or even a sissy, I don't care~! I AM TREMBLING~! The pain was minimum, that I can assure you. But it's like watching a horrible movie, just that this time round, you play the victim. The sound of the saw (YES, THE SAW~!) really makes me nervous like hell~! Then the surgeon also try forcing (YES, USING FORCE~!) out your pathetic tooth. You'll be lucky if the whole tooth came off all in one piece~! If were to break, like me, then congratulations~! Why~? Because there's only little bit of tooth left for the surgeon to clip his/her instrument onto, yet there are still so root of the tooth which is still in your gums, I don't wanna say much, just use your best imagination to imagine what the surgeon will do...!

Well that's about it, nothing much to say. The cleaning up (Stitching and all) and after-care will not be of much concern if you can make it that far. Well, the pain is now killing me already. I'm so giddy already so I think I'll touch on one key point. Guys, if you are serving National Service now, or about to, or haven't served at all, then you're lucky~! According to the dentist, if I remembered correctly, if you are to have your wisdom tooth operation with the government clinics during your time of service, it will be completely paid for. You will not be paying a single cent. How's that~? But, please do confirm again with the clinics, just in case I'm wrong. Well, gotta log off now... The pain is REALLY HERE~!

Posted by Stanley @ 5:57 PM