Living In Black

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

^_^Gong Xi Fa Cai~! Hey, it's time to collect those red packets again ya. I hope everyone is doing well in this, so that you have more money to GAMBLE away~! Wahaha~! Err... Doesn't sound very morale though... Anyway ever since I started my working life, Chinese New Year hasn't been a occasion that I'll look forward to. Unlike any other holidays, my family will normally go abroad, leaving me alone at home. To make things worst, there'll be so limited place to go, and SO limited things to eat. Everything will be more expensive too~! But lucky for me, I still have my friends with me... Most importantly, I have JingLin to keep me company too.

Dreaming Of My Presious

But this year, she wasn't around with me. She had went to Malaysia with her family. She'll only return tonite. (Ah... Tonite eh...) Although I had managed to make time move fast for the past few days, yet time seems to drag in today's afternoon. I just that's just so human, we tend to get more anxious when the time gets nearer.

Yesterday, nearly all my close friends came to my house to Bai Nian. They are Ise, Marcxs with GF, Weiqiang with Wife-To-Be, Qingjun with GF, Weny, Emily & Winnie. As usual, gambling is a MUST. It seems to be a tradition for us already. We only gamble now, no more late night outings during CNY. Not even makan session... But Winnie didn't gamble with us, she only used my computer. Same as last year also, is that her tradition~? ^_^Haha~! Just kidding arh, Winnie~! Yesterday's result was rather overwhelming, it had been a long time since like 7 years that the winners & losers stayed at both extreme ends. The highest winning is like $150/- or more, and the highest lost was like $200/- plus. At 1st I also lost $100/- plus one man, but lucky for me, I won about $50/- at the very end.

Happily Together This New Year

Well, not only that... Yesterday night both my photoshop Si Fu (Weny & Winnie) inpart me some skills again~! Wahahaha~! But guess what~? I forgot most of what they told me already. *DuHzZz* So complicating sia~! Haiz... I wonder when can they teach me agian... I took like 1hrs plus to edit the photos in this entry. So simple kind only, yet... Haiz... *GaMbAtE* I think I gotta work very hard man~! Alright, I guess that's about all... I wish you peeps Happy New Year once again, and Stay Healthy & Happy Always~!

Posted by Stanley @ 2:26 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

+++GreenJynx's Blog added+++

Have you ever wonder, what is it that you have that will always be yours, that anything you do can be permanent~? I had this question floating in me for a very long long time. Whatever I have now, might not be mine again later. Whatever I feel now, might change in a second. And wherever I go now, doesn't mean I can stay there forever...

I believed that most of you (or should I say all of you?) have this feeling that "you can't love again anymore", at least once until now. I myself had that too, and that's not only once. And I once was so sure of something, yet things just did not turn out to be so.

Have you ever tell yourself that you'll never talk to this guy/gal, but yet at the end of the day, the he/she just turns to be the love of your life...

But like that I say... What is forever or permanent~? For that person whom you believed that you'll never talk to can become your husband/wife, but the next moment you may be signing the divorce papers. For the good health that you're having now, doesn't guarantee that you'll still be healthy when you're old. For the things you treasure or fancy, doesn't mean it can hold thru time...

For years (yeah, I really mean it~!) I searched for the answer... And with the recent encounters, I found 2 things that were forever.

The 1st is Time, it'll never stop for anyone or for any reason. Whatever that had happened, had happened and time would just continued to pass by coldly, and constantly... Seconds by seconds, time passed by slowly. It never complains, and it'll never gets tired. Time needs no compaion, maybe that's why over so many years of lonliness that it became so "heartless" and cold. Or maybe, Time used to have many "friends" or owns many things in life, just that none was there permenantly with it...

The 2nd thing I discovered that'll be permanent was, Death. After death, one could no longer love or be happy. And after death, one come no longer hate or be sad. I had 'encountered' several deaths recently. Not that I was near death or something, but I just happened to see people living this world. Just yesterday, I saw this family crying their hearts out because they had lost someone whom they loved dearly. I could feel the ache in me too when I was there watching them. I had felt for their pain, and I also felt their sense of emptiness too.

Ok, by reading until here, I know I had given you peeps the creep that I'm going crazy or something. Don't worry ya, I'm more than alright, because now I know I need to treasure whatever I had now. But yet I gave myself this space that maybe one day, just maybe only, that whatever I have will no long be mine...

With that, I hope that maybe I may have changed some of you for the better. Cheers~! *WiNkZ*

Posted by Stanley @ 9:02 AM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

It happened in my house, on one of those stormy nights recently. We were alone in my room. We were very cold as we just returned home from the crazy rain pouring outside. We tried seeking warm from each other. That was when, that JingLin went to her drawer and took out the metalic fold, and opened the wrapping. She put it on for me, and I was so nervous already. My heart was pumping like crazy, I tried to put up a strong front. But when it finally touch my skin, I felt SO COLD~!

Yes~! The feeling was so cold that I nearly frozed~! My very 1st time putting on a face mask.. Couldn't believed that JingLin would actually want me to try out putting a face mask on a cold & rainy day. Below are some photos we took...

Nice~?

Yes, It's Really That COLD~!

JingLin Say I Trying To Look Like A Psycho, Do I~?

It was a rather fun experiment though... But I wonder, does the face mask really makes a difference~? I didn't really feel the difference, but JingLin said that there is... Well, only you gals are the expert ya.

Anyway, it's raining cats & dogs recently. So do keep yourself healthy ya. If possible, try bringing umbrella whenever & wherever you go... ^_^Cheers~!

Posted by Stanley @ 7:48 PM

Sunday, January 01, 2006

^_^Happy New Year Peeps~! Year 2005 had just given way to Year 2006. Yes, it's a brand new year now. So what will be laid ahead of us them~? Will things only changed for the better~? Well, I hope so...! I see this new year as a chance to start/change things that I had longed planned/wished to do.

Here's my wish list : -

[1] To save up a targeted amount of cash monthly. (Amount : Highly Classified)

[2] To get GOLD this year for my IPPT 2006.

[3] To learn how to cook to at least 10 dises from my parents.

[4] Be abled to finally bring JingLin to Genting, for her 1st ever casino trip.

[5] Be lucky enough to get into the Advance Diploma program.

[6] Have enough rest for the whole year round. (Can predict heavy workload coming already~!)

[7] All my Loved & Treasured ones to stay Happy & Healthy, including myself...

Well, looking back at the wish list for Year 2005, I think it's kinda similar to this year's one wor~! *HuMpF* Meaning I didn't really fulfill my last year's wishes. I guess this year round I must work double hard eh~! *gambate*

Posted by Stanley @ 12:20 PM